So hard to believe this pictures was taken at the babies 3 month photo session. Hard to believe they are now 4 months old-- really 4 1/2 months! I tried to do a couple of blogs but for whatever reason the website would not let me upload photos and a blog without photos of the babies didn't seem fair.
My last post was ironically, exactly one month before the babies were born. I was already on bed rest for pre-eclampsia for the previous four weeks so I thought I was more than ready to see my babies. And I was, but looking back I wish we could have kept them baking a little longer. They were so tiny to me when they were born. James weighing 5lbs 4oz and Laura weighing 6lbs even. They say you forget labor. I guess it is true. I remember thinking that I couldn't do it, that it hurt too bad- but I can't remember the pain anymore. We went to the hospital on Thursday night and started my induction. By Friday evening I was in full blown labor. I thought for sure they would arrive before Saturday- but around midnight they slowed down my pitocin and things slowed down considerably. Around 4:30 they moved me to the operating room (in case Laura rolled and had to be delivered via c-section) At 5:36 James was born and 30 minutes later Laura joined.
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| Finally getting to hold my new babies- still in the operating room but they let me hold them the whole way back to our room |
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| Together again |
I've learned that nothing ever goes the way you planned- so I was prepared for that. I wasn't prepared for how protective I was going to be. I knew ahead of time I didn't want anyone at the hospital while we were in labor but if I could go back I would actually ask that no one even come to the hospital. I wish I had more time alone with them- just us as a family before the rest of the world intruded.
But the world does intrude and time goes by so quickly. It is amazing and exhausting being a Mom. I can't imagine life without them and unlike many parents I keep wishing for them to stay just as they are. Every night I go into their rooms and kiss them one more time before I got to bed. I hold them and just hope that they want to snuggle forever, even though I know they won't. I watch their personalities develop and I hope the traits I see mirroring mine or Jim's don't cause them as much heartache as they have us. A day still haven't gone by that I haven't cried when thinking about them. They are growing so quickly and have already changed so much.
Since I haven't found the time to do much blogging or even scrap booking of them I wanted to upload a few pictures of the last few months...
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| First Christmas Eve |
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| First bath for Laura |
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| First bath for James |
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| Gator babies at their newborn session |
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| Big boy and girl- 4 months old on Tax Day!!! |
